Life happens, folks!
I would love to report that, after a year of hiatus from the internet, I’m publishing a new book or something else equally exciting. But the truth is, I’ve been dealing with some changes in direction for my life. I did a ton of reflective journaling and soul searching in the past year. However, in terms of publishable writing, there’s nothing in the coffers right now. That’s not to say that I don’t have plenty of ideas to work with or that I have any intention of completely throwing in the towel. It’s just that priorities had to shift for a while. Mostly, I’m crankier for the lack of productivity, but I am glad that I took time to spend with family and I have a new skill-set to help carry me through life.
I’ve remained pretty busy despite losing my office position to the pandemic I was feeling pretty good about things back when it started. I previously wrote about how I wanted to return to school and get my teaching certifications. I started that process only to quickly learn that, I really don’t have the patience for the modern education system. There are a whole host of reasons that I won’t get into here, for now. But, I started trying to find something else to help me find my footing in a world where I feel rejected for the most part. (Now I have no idea if that is a truth or not, but, suffice it to say, I feel that way whether it is or isn’t.) And I did go back to school to get a license for Nail Technology and I’m loving that added creative outlet and hope that I can make a real go of it now that I’m nearly finished. I am set to graduate from the program on the 13th of May. Then, I can schedule my State Board Exams and pay my license fees.
I know it will be some work to find clients and I’m likely going to end up working for a salon at first taking walk-ins. However, I do have a goal of having my own suite where I can take private clients and work for myself in that way. I also have started creating these gorgeous press-on nail sets that I’ll be selling online (well am selling… you can find them here: https://hand-glam-by-sam.square.site/ ) Between the two, this allows me to better manage my time and get back to the writing that I love so much.
Anyway, since I’ve really not been doing much fiction writing, I am eager to get back into the groove, reconnect with the writing community, and maybe try something new. Friends have suggested a sort of memoir because of my past experiences in dealing with emotional trauma. They say I have a unique way of looking at situations and dealing with the unpleasant ones that others may find helpful or inspirational to their own life. This has come up from more than just a couple of friends, so, I’m giving it some thought. I don’t know that I’m quite ready to re-open some of those old wounds yet, though. Getting back to characters, dramatic plots, and world-building is what I look most forward to with the rest of the year.
I’m sure it will feel normal and natural to get back in the writing chair and get back to that daily routine of adding words to a manuscript. I find myself feeling disconnected from the writing community at large though. That idea of having found the “tribe” or circle of friends who share this passion has always eluded me. There is a desire to want to connect with other writers and other creative people. The fact is, I rarely connect with people on a deeper level though. Just when I think I’m making progress in doing so, people pull away from me. Maybe there is something wrong with me, generally speaking, that lends to my isolation. I laugh at that idea really. Mainly because, even if there is something they perceive as wrong, I’m rather happy with myself for the most part. So, I’m not going to make apologies for being intelligent, speaking my mind, and wanting the things I do.
I’m suddenly reminded of this scene from Young Sheldon. https://youtu.be/8_9rGlHBGjI?t=89
I felt exactly like this so often in my life. Growing up in an area where so few shared my interests, I learned to adapt and spent a good amount of time trying to be someone I wasn’t. I have learned that to waste time doing that isn’t productive though. It really only hinders you from meeting the people who are meant to be in your life. And I think that there are people out there who are going to be as good for me as I am for them.
Can anyone else relate?
So What’s Next?
These last few weeks of school will be hectic for me. There are expectations to be met with that concerning grades, client interactions, and getting prepared for exams both at school and for the State. I admit that I’m looking forward to being done with the college t-shirts and capris that have been my uniform for the last 8 months. I am also looking forward to finally having my license so that I can start building a paying clientele. But most of all, I’m looking forward to getting back to projects and I’m going to shift gears a bit I think.
Slauson Cove has been a sort of home in my head for a good many years. I think it is time for some fresh characters and settings. I’ve been making notes on a new project for a couple of years now and I think with new resources, support, and motivation, it is time I get that out of a notebook and put it into the writing software to finally start creating a manuscript. So, I’ll be introducing that along the way. There might be other news in the coming weeks that I’ll share. But we’ll see.
I also want to go through The Artist’s Way again. In so many ways I feel like I am back at the beginning of everything. Maybe that’s a good thing. A bit of a reset to put things into perspective and revive the determination and drive I’ve had for so long. So, if there are other artists who read here and would like to go through it with an accountability partner and share thoughts and ideas; I would welcome the idea of a group or partnership in that regard. Maybe start the program on the first of June. Comment or email if you’d like to be part of that. Could even do a bit of a blog tour or exchange for that.
I’ll sign off here and return with more interesting posts later on! Until next time, everyone stay well and say hello in the comments if you’ve missed me.